A couple weeks ago I was chatting with a friend about having 2 versus 1...if you don't have more than 1 it's exponentially harder adding a second kid to the mix....BUT when it's good it's REALLY good. I think that's hands down the best way to describe it. And right now James is totally Rob's hero. It's something I never really expected and certainly never realized how something so little and so 'normal' would end up meaning the world to me. Rob may not always look up to James and he might be the only kid to do so, but for right now, for this moment James is Rob's hero no matter what James can or can't do. Rob doesn't know James should be able to have a conversation or write his name, he doesn't know how hard James had to work to learn to jump, all he knows is this kid loves him with his whole heart, makes him laugh, brings him his luvie at night and brushes him off when he falls...right before he pushes him back down but who's counting anyways. The little moments when I realize Rob just sees a crazy, fun, full of love big brother. Seeing how much Rob looks up to James and wants to be like him is one of those little things I never expected. Not that I didn't think it would happen, but I never thought about it. I knew their relationship would be efferent than other siblings, but I never thought about how much the same it would be. Knowing that James is even just one persons hero makes me happy beyond words.
It absolutely breaks my heart to hear people, even doctors, say a baby with Ds won't have a good quality of life, that he'll suffer, that his life isn't worth living. I'm pretty sure this sibling dynamic is not too different from most households out there. I know it will change and I don't know if James will always be Rob's hero, but no matter how it changes having James in our little family is worth it every second of every day and I wouldn't change a thing.